There are so many things I want to say, but I'm going to keep this short. I'm glad I found this community years ago. I'm sorry if I ever been rude to you. Sometimes I just can't control myself and say whatever to people. I lost someone who was everything to me and it feels awful. Leaving states tomorrow and I'm not sure if I want to come back. Just wanted to say don't ever give up on your dreams. I gave up so many times and I regret it all. Goodbye.