I have long story turned short because it is personal, just know it was bad. We have family problems in my house and a lot of things went down in the morning and I don't really have friends on the outside so I resorted to probably the best girlfriend in the world @Rayne Valar and the most amazing best friend out there and amazing guy and girl that you all should love and respect, that counts for both of them, @Seeker they both offered me something that could have just made your heart grow a million times larger, Raynes offer is more on the personal side, but know that it was life changing and huge. Seeker, is like my best friend, how little I have known him makes it all the better because a small offer to get me food, made me feel so amazing when he asked. Food may seem little to you all and people gift players admin and donator, but its not money that counts it's more of thought, because I don't have money for food and again family problems, but no matter what these two people made a huge difference in my world and I couldnt have asked for more, I want you all to know I did decline these offers, not because I don't want help, but more because they proved to me there can be a little hope left, and for the community yeah some players may be complete assbutts and trolls but in the better side some players do ask how I am everyday and would love to listen and talk with me. I just wanted you all to know this is the best community by far and I could say a lot of you are my friends and thank you for everything you guys do to help me and everything else.